The moment I knew I wanted to marry you

The moment I knew I wanted to marry you, was probably one of the hardest times of your life. I had known that I loved you for a while by then, probably before I should have ever thought such a thing because I had barely known you then, but the moment I knew I wanted to spend forever by your side was July 8th, 2012 and the week that followed. (Which seems really crazy. because this was the week before we got pregnant ((so no one can say it was only because I was having your baby.)) I knew I HAD to be by your side the minute you found out, but I couldn't be. I wanted to come to you, but you told me it wasn't the best time. Waiting for you to come home felt like an eternity and I felt so helpless. I can't even explain it, but I knew I always wanted to be there for you, to hold your hand, even though I know I couldn't make whatever was happening just disappear. But I knew I would try anything just to make you smile, even if only for a second. Just to take your pain away and make you forget. I wanted to be your high. I wanted to let you know that you weren't alone, not at that moment, and not ever again. I love you, every day til forever. You are my heart.